On the 7th day after being raped by my husband's boss, I lost my rationality...

My body has been tainted and never returns to its original state. I will fall asleep next to my husband again today, praying that it would be a bad dream. The next day, when I was told it was for my husband, my body went to do what I had to say. I have now become a woman who is not qualified to be loved by my husband. I want to tell the truth...but I can't. I was drowned in the act of sin, as if to escape the pain of deceiving my husband. And on the 7th day of being raped, I was controlled not only by my body but also by my mind...