Wife is climaxed by molestation in front of her husband

I was molested for the first time in my life. The first time was on my way to the hospital, and the second time was in front of my husband... Despite my husband being in front of me, I was unable to wake my sleeping husband. He couldn't stop the overflowing love juices, and ended up cumming on the molester's fingers, which was a shame. I don't like it, but why do I feel this way? I can no longer forget the pleasure of molestation, and before I knew it, I started to fantasize about being molested...