My affair with my adult son's friend Kitayama began five years ago. On the night I discovered my husband's third affair and we had a terrible fight, Kitayama comforted me. Looking into my eyes, he said, “You want revenge for his cheating, don't you? Why not do it with me?” I felt guilty, but I also wanted to return his feelings, so we crossed the line. Being held and desired for the first time in years reminded me how intoxicating it was to feel loved. We continued meeting in secret for five years, craving each other and his creampies—until something finally changed between us...