I was forced to hold my beloved husband, as I stared at my husband's sleeping face, carrying the sins of my beloved husband on my shoulders. After that, I was embraced by the executive director every day, and lived a life as if I had fallen into the depths of the abyss. Even though she lives together under one roof, her husband's presence is getting farther away each day. I thought my husband was my best understanding. But why does my husband not notice? "I've been tainted, destroyed, and I can't get back to you again, so please come to realize... '