She desperately wants an ordinary life, a gentle lover and simple happiness, yet another side buried deep within her body constantly takes control. Even when reason screams no, she finds herself kneeling, craving a collar, tasting sweetness in pain and getting drunk on humiliation. Part of her strongly desires training and submission. This ordeal of communal enemas and mandatory, unanesthetized stretching and penetration of both holes leaves her suspended between suffering and pleasure, unable to decide whether her uncontrollable desire is a sin or simply natural.